Hi Patolman04, I'm sorry you have lost your best friend.

I experienced the loss, so I understand and felt what you have written in your post. You are not alone in your grieving. I had to think of positive memories and hang on to them til my grieving process became lighter.

That just something I have found useful. I hope that you will feel better. That you can work on your grieving whether it is by doing these posts or reading replies to your post and other members who have experienced similar losses as you.