well friends thank you for relplying!! And to answer your questions. Yes Iam from India. am an under graduate student from a reputed college in India. Iam really good at mathematics and have immense interest in economics , So when i say i need to achieve , I meant i will do MBA and then someday i want to be an economist integrating mathematics and economics.
Ok . So now my problem in depth : Two train of thoughts
1. All I need is happiness and a girl can give me that so go for it , you need a girl friend to be happy. What is the point in working hard to achieve when you are not happy with it?
2. I need to achieve. I cannot be like this. I want something big in life and then only i will be happy . I can get girls later in my life also.
Now to be precise i have catalogued my emotions also : For 3 hours (aprx) i will be in 1st train of thought then the 2nd for around (4-7 hrs) and then 1st again
As i told before , in this dilemma i proposed a girl while actually not making her happy and then i got rejected .
My depression is because of 2 things 1. Cause m unable to resolve my dilemma and there is a constant frction between these thoughts
2. I was close to a girl and now that i proposed her we aint talking.
Please give me suggestions