I do understand the resistance to meds. I used to hate having to take pills to be "normal", and I often did the passive/aggressive thing with them ('forget' to take them, or fail to renew my prescription, or not have enough money to get them), or flat-out dig my heels in and refuse to take them.

Not this time, however. If I've learned anything over the year since I was diagnosed with BP, it's that I desperately need medication if I'm to function at all. I get discouraged from time to time, because there are times when I wonder if I'll EVER stop having mood episodes every couple of months or so. But when I look back over the past year, I realize that I've come a long way during the process, and if I'd kept going the way I was, my illness would've just kept getting worse.......I was headed for hospitalization at the time I received the dx.