Welcome Orion. I am so sorry that you have had to endure so much in your lifetime. I am glad you are in therapy. It took me years to really say some very important things. As you I really didn't say much of anything for quite a while. I had a very wonderful t who helped me with little data. It was at very tiny baby steps as she had very little to go on. Please give your t some time. And especially yourself. I imagine trust is very hard with what you have experienced. Take care and PM me any time you like.