I too have been dealing with this a lot lately. I was in the hospital for 4 days last week...started ECT on Wednesday of last week and I was suppose to follow through with it this week but just couldn't pull myself out of bed to make my appointment on Wednesday of this week. Now I will have to start all over next week with the ECT.

I still wonder why I even bother with the ECT... and why I bother to tell my therapist why I feel the way I am feeling and end myself up in the hospital. It really is a waste of my time and a waist of everyone elses time. If not for my own kids no one even would have missed me. Well my sister missed me but she would have got over it soon...like every other death in a family .... it passes with time and we all move on.... Why am I so damn stupid to have to tell on myself on how I am feeling instead of just going and doing what I really want to do.... I'm sorry about the content in this message....