Thanks for responding, PC peeps. I'm not in a good place mentally right now. So I'll just keep it brief.

As optimize described it, it is a public mask. And I'm tired of wearing it all the time. I understand the need for it, but sometimes I want to let my guard down. And, right now, I have no place to do that. So all this pent-up anger and energy has nowhere to go. It just festers. And all I want is to explain everything to someone else and not to be judged for it. I want to be honest with someone and for them to not be afraid of me, of my honesty. Is that so rare in this world?