I like Optimize's idea. As for living with yourself, please remember when we are manic, we are going to act in wild ways. I haven't accused anyone of making passes at me, but I have certainly done embarrassing things. Some folks have lots of sex, even with strangers, spend tons of money they don't have, stand on a street corner and campaign for a city position, etc. We just have to realize it was the illness, and we couldn't help it.