What a rough day.

I just have to post to see if I can get my frustrations out, so I can continue to get things done before finally crashing.

I've been so paralyzed with fear. Fear of what? Success, failure, life, death, thinking of suicide. In fact I failed to get a paper in because I just couldn't stand it. I feel like if I actually do something or try, that it will go the other direction.

Well now that it's out, I can forget about the fear, and just keep on going. There has to be something worth working towards, out there.