this sounds like how i was in high school and on. the only person i've ever really let in is my husband, no one else wanted to listen or be involved. and yeah, when i tried to open up i would get shut down and people would leave.

now i pretend like i'm okay, most of the time. if i'm in a really bad mood, i just don't say anything and i try not to be involved with people. if i'm in a good mood, it's easier to be nice but yeah....me and people does not equal good mood anyway...

so i guess i developed a different me? for business purposes. idk how to explain it. it's the me that i could be if i didn't have these issues.