Well..I went to my appointment today. Definitely one of the most awkward situations I have been in for a while. I didn't like it at all. I don't like talking about my problems, I prefer keeping them to myself. I was doing fine up until the appointment. It brought up memories that I haven't thought about in a long time. She says I definitely have PTSD. Not sure if she could know that from the first appointment, but it's whatever. Near the end she asked me how often I wanted to have an appointment. I figured they worked that out, and my first thought was "Once a week." That's what I said. So..my next appointment is in a week.

After all of that..I'm not in the best mood. It didn't help when the receptionist and my therapist laughed as soon as I walked out. **** them, **** therapy. I'll deal with it on my own.

Oh, and on top of all of that..I can't get my adderall that I've been taking for 3+ years. I lost the POS that the Ozark Center offers (no idea why) and I would have to pay $115 for a script of them. I've been going through withdrawals. I'm trying to cancel most of them out with my brother's adderall XR's, but they aren't the same. I only have a few lithiums left, and I'm sure that's not cheap either.

If any of you were expecting positive news, I'm sorry for disappointing you.

Hope everyone is well,
Chris