update from Shady:

"I went to AA tonight. I heard if I am unwilling to admit I am powerless then it equals continuous effort to prove xyz. I see that as if I am unwilling to admit my mother is incapable of loving me it results in continuous efforts by me trying to prove I am love-able. I let go of my mom.

Today the therapist was talking about self forgiveness, we asked her how we could forgive our self when we have put ourselves in dangerous situations and done untold harm/damage. She got down on our level ( we were sitting on the floor). There is nothing to forgive myself for. Instead I need to accept that I did the best I knew how to do to cope with life. I did what I knew how to keep myself safe.

I couldn't do this without all your support.

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PS

On2, whats new down aisle 7?

Googley: tickletackles
Nicole: huggles
Buttr: Love ya!
Tator: thx so much
Nemos: squeezes so hard you farts
Amazonmom: ah, I miss you.