The only thing that's kept me from ending it is because I couldn't put my kids through that.

Honestly. if it wasn't for them I wouldn't be alive today.

I don't buy into any of that "life is a gift" stuff because I honestly don't believe that it is. At least mine isn't. But, I've seen what suicide can do to kids and I could never put mine through that. That's the one and only thing keeping me around