so it was not their for a while... winter came, and i was like a lot calmer and stuff.

but now, it's almost summer of 2013- and the guilt of letting my life just pass me by is getting to me again

i actually can't explain it.. i know i'm ill, i know their's a lot of things i'll never be able to do- i accept that

but what i don't accept is that i'm now a year older, summer's coming back round, and all i've done is try to move forward with things.. but be pushed back by my mental and physical illness- why am i blaming myself?. and why always this time of year.

ugggg..