i love this thread (and not just because the title of it is from shakespeare my fave line from my fave play).

yes i battle this a lot, and to be quite honest- it annoys me at times because i can't make any type of choice reguarding it

their are times when i think to myself, ooo yeah, i'll die tomorrow- i'll be happy with that... free from pain, free from this life, etc etc etc, then i go.. ah but i'll really miss the simple things!. breathing. talking. i won't have the ability to change things- i'm so young... why?. is it really essential?. so then my part that wants to live gets all excited about living and a few minits later.. i go back round in a circle to think about a strong urge to die... so yes... it's a constant battle.

i've discussed this with the samaritans actually, they tried to make me understand