thankyou guys!

I mean it!

...it's becoming more obvious to me now...as if I was blind before?

I evolved with addicts and criminals...I grew up with addicts and criminals..

they were always regular people to me.

but criminals and addicts don't last very long ....

and that can't be a regular thing right?...to die in your twenties and thirties?

but the behaviour is unsustainable...clearly!

...believed I knew what I was doing I tried to go before I even met these now dead friends!...

I guess my point here is very simple!

these are the only people I ever knew very well and they likewise knew me...even though it's a selfish illusion??...we down here in the Australia land of descended convicts!

...even if you are totally crazy?...all you need is 'one' supporter...

someone to say "yeah me too mate!"

"lets do as many things wrong as possible....just for the utter defiance and hell of it!!"

but!!

this kind of deranged human arrangement never has a happy ending...

so I decided to go it alone....and I am very much alive...and very much alone because of this choice!... and I continue to be alone because all my 'so called' mates didn't make the same choice...

but?...everyone has a story