I can relate, why is hell so comfortable. Why do we assume hell is not so bad, it's not that bad, we know what to expect, we know just how bad and ugly it is and I guess we get comfortable in the safety of knowledge. Your own personal hell is a bad place to be but we feel safe there, at least we didn't take anyone down w/ us. Been there, still stuck there, Hope to get out soon. Maybe I will see you in my own personal hell, it appears we are both frequent visitors.

Take all the time you need. I fully understand where you are coming from. Hope to see you back soon. Luv ya dude.