Self blame and feeling bad is a familiar place for you, and it is hard for you to give that process up. With time and dedication and strong determination you can move beyond that familiar place. The transformation may seem a bit to scary at 1st. but the joy and freedom you will experience with it, will make it well worth it.
Here is a preview of what I am talking about
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