Holy crap. Is this thoughtful support? It just sounds judgmental and critical. Analyzing a person's English and drawing inferences from that. I like the idea of seeing a therapist. You brought children into the world, you have some responsibility towards them. Maybe a therapist can help you figure out a life plan that satisfies your need to express yourself - rebel - and fulfill the commitments you've already made. Husbands can learn stuff - we all can.