I am going to disagree with you in a way.

I think if I had plenty pills around, I would just one day take them all. It's kinda hard to overdose on supplements (believe me, I tried...) and the other ways of ending yourself are somewhat more brutal and are likely to spark up your self-preservation so one doesn't go through. I think OD is one of the most common ways to go out...

If the meds are the only thing that separates life and death matters for you... it's a bad place to be, bad way of thinking and I cannot see it work for you on long term.
Also... I like to say there's a difference between not killing yourself and living.

I do find it bit judgemental when people say that if you don't take meds, you don't wanna really get better because you didn't try "everything".
Look folks, everything includes going to India and meditation hardcore for half a year and other things that many never did and never will do. So I will not judge you for not going on extreme diet (from western point of view) or to India... but just realize that there are things we will do and things we will not do, for many reasons.