...this is what I struggle with the most...

what might take for-never for someone else to understand?

I know it immediately!

and the insecurity I suffer while the stereotypically smart people fortuitously navigate with their simple decisions the discrepency between what is comfortable and what is wise is so profound!

what I mean is...

I can't do what the people I want to be like?...I can't do what they do!

but I'm surrounded by them

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