i feel for you flapjack

getting a new bed was a start of changing how you feel, like me staring at the same ceiling didn't help either and even changing that ceiling didn't help me it still lay dormant. It haunts you at times and you do not know why, i do not take meds and do not have a therapist to help me cope with it but maybe if i did would it be any easier for me , not sure tried and tested very briefly and chose to do it my myself. days are better, triggers i seem to cope with very well. but i know it looms deep inside and for that i think it makes me very aware of other peoples feelings to understand mine