This is what my years of searching has lead to.. I have anxiety but I don't have anxiety disorder, I have hundreds of weird OCD symptioms and thoughts but I don't have the disorder, I act bipolar but I don't have the disorder.. I have depression that's for sure..

I used to be an extrovert. This is what has happened. I'm 100% sure that this is what I have..

I'll never have friends again that I once had.. I'll never get a girlfriend.

This is the most god awful disorder.. I just chose to not accept it. I avoided it. I'm so sad.

Do medications work at least for the depression? I.. What the ****? Omg.. I'm just crying.. I can't believe this. It's this. Wow..

I don't even know what to say.. This is absolutely and utterly terrible..