Thank you for your reply.

It's actually kind of scary for me as my best friend is someone I met when I was in my conservative Christian phase (I have borderline personality disorder and used to go through "phases" with my identity issues). She has no idea that I feel this way, and I'm afraid of what would happen if she knew. So if I met someone that I wanted to be with on a more permanent basis, I'd probably lose my best friend. And she's really the only friend I have; other than her, I only have acquaintances.

I know, it's kind of a cluster. Something I probably have to figure out on my own. Anyway, thanks again for the response and support.