This is not selfish. It's human to want something back. I am sorry you have nothing to do on your birthday; that's usually the way mine goes, too. My family is all gone now and I have no real friends I can just call either. Also, I talk myself out of things, too. I was going to go do something today with Ani and then Bruce needed me for something, then he didn't, so today is pretty weird for me. Weekends are always hard for me, too.

Don't leave PC. I am glad you shared and that I was able to read your most recent posts.

I too have been struggling with feeling heard and validated and feeling "depressing".

Your posts only validated my own feelings. I appreciate it. I am glad I could read them today.

You did not depress me; you affirmed my humanity.

thanks,

Carol, fellow person with bpd