I self harm, I've never worried 'cause is under control, always new blades, caring about the deep, etc... I do it, cause it allows me to recover my mind and concentrate on work, or whatever, the thing is now is not enough... I jumped from my window today trying to find a harder impact... (don't want to die or get really hurt, just be able to concentrate again) but didn't work, I've thought other solutions, but I believe I won't be able to control the damage. (Like being hit like a car) REally need to work, and concentrate on it, any ideas???

Ps. I go to the psych and the med is not working yet.