the only thing I am going to repeat here is that tomorrow the original poster meets with her therapist and has asked for suggestions of what she can do and say at that appointment so again here is what I posted that I would do.

If this poster was me and I was brainstorming this from the idea that it is my situation here are my options based on how I do things -

I can write what I am feeling out and then tell my therapist
I can write what I am feeling out and then hand my therapist the paper.
I can print off this thread and give it to my therapist.
I can walk in and request a new therapist and walk right back out the door.
I can request a new therapist and then talk about why I want a new therapist.

I could get a shoe box, glue, construction paper, and make a diarama depicting my feelings

this last one I actually did when I had a sexual attraction to a therapist. I mad a scene inside a shoe box of the therapy office, me sitting on the couch and the therapist in the chair at the desk which clearly shows I know what the relationship is really like and about, the balloons hanging betwween us in the air was the actual conversations pointing to the person that was saying them and the balloons pointing to my head behind be were holding hearts and so on.

The therapist saw my art therapy project and started laughing becasue that therapist had never seen this approach to that issue before and then we discussed the options together of whether or not the two of us could and wanted to remain a therapy team. it was a great conversation and the diarama lighted the mood so that we could talk about it.

We decided to get a new therapist on of my same gender because I am not gay or a lesbian. that way I will not keep having sexual attractions to my therapists.

I still have contact with that therapist for he was the one and only male therapist that I liked let alone fell in love with. and that therapist still has the diarama on display in the office and he says in his words -

"it has helped many abuse survivors talk about the attachment issue before they even start experiencing it. Thanks to your diarama I can now hold on to my caseload of female clients. There was a time when I thought I had some contagious desease because a majority of my female clents whould start experiencing problems and want a new therapist. Now they see the diarama and the issue of client therapist relationship and a client building an appropiate attachment to me is right out there in the open right from the first session."

Sezzie - please let us know what you decided to do and how it went. good luck and hope things turn out the way you want them to. Hang in there.