Bless your heart -- you've really had a rough time. I can see where it would be hard to trust anyone, but at the same time wanting love and support.

Why don't you post on "Survivors of Abuse" forum?? There, they will certainly understand what you've been through, and offer excellent advice and support. Many have been through the same things that you've been through. So go ahead and post there. I'm sure you'll feel comfortable there.

I wish you the very best. Please keep posting, and I hope we hear more from you. God bless and take care of yourself. Hugs, Lee