So as much as I'd like to say that I'm not addicted to anything, I feel like I really am. Addicted to pain, substance abuse, alcohol...anything really. I keep searching for a way to stop or a reason to stop, but I've never found one good enough to be able to put up with life without them. I feel like I can stop if I want to but I've decided that my life is better with all these things. Just as an escape. So why stop if these things help me to escape from a cold world?