((((goodvibes))))
Please remember that you don't want to end life, only the life as you know it. You can change your life. It might take time, but things won't always be so dark and desperate as they feel now.

Try to distract yourself from thinking about this now. Watch tv (stare at it and block bad thoughts at least.) Get into posting to others, even if it's only a smiley. Make sure you get ready for bed, and go to bed when you should, don't mull around thinking about how bad you feel.

Tomorrow, tell someone honestly how bad you are feeling...ask them to help you get through the day. If you really feel desperate, call for help from the authorities. I know many ppl fear doing that, but what will they do to you that you aren't already feeling? Nothing. They will take care of you and get you to someplace safe where you won't have to think about being unsafe.

Take care of you. Sorry days are so dark for you now.