I have pondered over some issues that I am going through and among them is loneliness. I have struggled with loneliness for so long I don't know what I can do. I have not been able to contact my friends for social life on teh weekends. It seems as if everybody else is just busy these days. Back then, you got to throw lavish parties and attend them. Now it's no longer the same. I wish I was the life of a party but of course if I ever told anyone they would laugh at me and another voice would tell me you don't deserve and I try to counter that by saying that I do.
you may think that I feel entitled to everything but of course I do sometimes because I have no one to talk to in my spare time and I need someone to be around me. I want people and yet I'm not getting them in my life. they need to play a more impacting role. I am reaching out to them but they won't reach out to me. what the heck! why can't i be a part of the big group?