I don't think you are a burden. You have been supportive to me. When I go thru this, it's hard. Misunderstandings are hard for us people with bpd, I know. I feel so much of what you just posted on this thread. "Everywhere I go, everything I touch hurts someone or messes things up". I know.

I don't think you are negative. BPD is a negative thing, but it does not make us negative!

I am so sorry you feel this way.

Last week or so, I almost left, too. I stayed cause this place means so much to me. My bpd is continually telling me to just forget life and forget ppl and forget groups, etc. But it's the bpd talking. (me anyway)

I really hope you can stay. I sometimes talk to the mods; they in fact suggested I do that when an issue comes up, to talk to them instead of venting at others on the board. I did that, the other night when I thought I was being hurt. I went to a mod. I was able to be respectful to her, but I did express how I was feeling and my concerns. It is really hard for us to do that, I know.

I hear what you are saying; I see your struggle here. So much like my own.

Please stay. It's your freedom. I hope you do. I love PC and I think you also enjoy it.

I don't want you to go back out in the cold again. BPD is so hard without support.

Carol