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Old Mar 10, 2013, 11:25 AM
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Yes! Well really in my program there were 2 parts: Partial Hospitalization (PHP), then Intensive Outpatient (IOP), as my signature illustrates. I actually graduated this past Wednesday, I forgot to update my signature though. I had so much success with the program. My life is so much more livable now. It really felt great to have a support system there for me as I recovered. And although I loved it, I felt ready to leave and move on with my life and onto new things.
The program didn't really work for me until about a month and a half into my treatment. It's not going to automatically start working on the first week, so don't feel helpless; it takes time. I entered in late November because I was in a severe depressive state and had almost tried to sui 2 times. A couple weeks after I started, I entered this crazy mixed state where I was still depressed and wanted to die; I was still tired but my body felt restless and full of energy (hard to explain); I was all over the place talking on and on to the point it "scared" everyone else in my group (I'm usually more reserved). That's just a condensed summary of how I was acting during that period of time. I entered IOP in the beginning of January, and the mixed state continued. I'll never forget, January 11th was the day I had a total meltdown during the program for no reason and entered another dark depressive state, and was almost sent to a hospital. But they just put me back into PHP for 2-3 weeks and stabilized me on working meds, that have lifted my mood and I've been great ever since. That depressive state went on for a week and a half and I kept trying so many coping skills but to no avail, and I felt like a hopeless failure. I wonder how long it would've lasted had I not been put on proper meds. I felt kind of bad about how it was the meds fixing my mood, and not me, but the people at my program told me that sometimes there are chemical imbalances so severe that they're beyond the patient's control. But I guess it's true, it's always darkest before the dawn, because I'm so much better now.
I'll give you a few tips though. Really put a lot of effort into using the coping techniques, etc. that they give you. Really take their advice. Because my sister has been in the same program as me twice, and she never used the techniques although I begged her to, and she's still as bad as she was in the first place, if not worse. No actually, yeah, she's worse. This program won't automatically make you better, you have to work at it as well, and if you use coping skills like I did and still don't feel better, maybe a medication change is in order. I was just very obsessive over completing the work and using the coping skills because for me it was like: my mom was paying $50 a day for me to be here, I'm not gonna just sit and waste my time and not get better. I'm gonna make the best of it.
You should do the same. If you do, you'll get great things out of the program.
I wish you the best of luck!
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I'm Jenna & I'm 16 years old. I'm currently undergoing treatment at a partial hospitalization program, for 6 hours everyday. The entire program is roughly 3 months long.
Diagnoses: Bipolar II Disorder, GAD, OCD
Meds: 50mg Pristiq, 50mg Seroquel, 600mg Lithium
Previous Meds: 20mg Lexapro, 50mg Seroquel XR, 600mg Trileptal

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