((Kate King)) I just checked out your about me, it sounds like you probably have "PTSD and more specifically "complex PTSD" because you had childhood abuse. I am glad to hear you have a really good therapist now, it is not unusaual for T's to miss the important signs of PTSD that goes way back.

It is not unusual to feel like you are just "rambling" in therapy, but if you were to really study PTSD and how child abuse or trama in childhood really affects how children develope into adults, things will make "more sense to you". When children have "loss of control" in their childhoods, when they "feel unsafe and stressed" they can develope some strange coping methods where they try to find some sense of "control" over something. These coping methods can range from "cutting, to anerexia, to OCD like symptoms, to even becoming bullies or even "over achievers" or achoholics, to workacholics. Typically there is a constant challenge in being able to "truely relax" and let go in any "normal way".

You are "not" just rambling, you are just struggling and you have not been able to figure out why. Therapy is supposed to help you with that, and a T is supposed to understand that "yes" often there is rambling and even fragmented thinking involved.

Glad to hear you finally have a T you feel is helping you.

(((Hugs)))
OE