I would look into your POS, Point of service plan - Wikipedia find out exactly how it works and if you can get the Adderall back if that was helping you, etc. Sounds like the person prescribing the Adderall was your POS and has retired I think you said? That would make someone else with different ideas your POS and I'd lean on them to either keep up the Adderall or give you enough to taper properly, etc. POS is not charity-related, just how some states are working; I'm on Maryland's plan but it's not POS, for example.

First therapy appointments (even first 6 weeks to 6 months) can be very tough as they're new and confusing and stir up all kinds of stuff like you found. Hang in there and they'll get like any other thing (school, work, etc.) that you have to get use to and then can start working better with. I'm glad you went and have a next appointment.