Oh and also, I had counselling between ages of 14 and 16 and never said a word. I had similar things said to me 'you only get out what you put in' and things like that. I used to think, do you have ANY idea how much I would LOVE to sit here and tell you everything and be free of it? But I couldn't. I had too many people to protect. And I was too scared, the safest place for me to keep everything was in my own head. But it was ruining me.

I think when you get let down by enough people, you get used to having no support and just stop expecting it off anyone. You think youre alone in it and always will be, so theres no point trying to get help. But youre really NOT and there IS help out there. I can tell just by reading this that you will get through this, because you want to. You have the drive just keep fighting and I will too.