I have had people who have tried to reach out to me when I need help, but for some reason,whenever I fall back into my old state of mind, when I feel lonely, I start to forget all the nice deeds that people have performed for me and then I start blaming everybody else for not being caring enough. I also don't seem to understand others like when they're busy and tehy can't always respond to my posts so then i question myself, going,"What did I do?" It's always been like that, and numerous times I have cried over this and now I realize it's just silly.