Yes, please do keep chatting, and posting, it's good to talk and not feel alone. And if I have inspired you to talk to your counselor, that's great.

I was going to say I spend little time worrying about whether my actions were rational. But then I remember how much I've beaten myself up mentally for refusing family therapy (er, would you want to go sit in a room with my family for an hour, try to make yourself heard and then go home with them after?) which my mum seems to think means I have zero right to complain. And any number of other regrets.