Nobody is meant to be in this kind of relationship. YOU DO NOT DESERVE TO BE ABUSED. NOBODY DOES.

I don't doubt that you love him. You can love him when he pushes you, you can love him when he hurts you, you can love him when he makes you feel like nothing. Loving him isn't enough. Loving him doesn't make you safe. Loving him doesn't make him treat you right. Loving him doesn't stop you from hurting.

Pushing is violent.

I know what it's like to think you're too far in to leave. YOU ARE NEVER EVER TOO FAR IN TO LEAVE. You can survive without him. You don't have to put up with this.

You're not stupid.

Did I mention you're not stupid? Abuse can happen to anyone. People say: "Oh, I'd never stay with a man who did X." Sure they wouldn't, if it happened out of the blue tomorrow to them, in their imaginations and not in real life. But when you've had someone chip chip chipping away at you, when you're already too far in to get out, yeah you would stay. You're not stupid. I spent seven years with my abusive ex. I have a genius-level IQ and a postgraduate degree. Intelligence can't protect you from abuse.

It's great, for him, that you want to give him a chance. But people don't just magically change. Your brain develops along certain pathways, and it's impossible to just wake up and change how you act. He can't just decide to change. I'm sorry. You shouldn't have to give him a chance. You deserve better, even if you don't believe it now, because EVERYONE DESERVES BETTER. This is in caps because it's important, not because I want to make you feel got at, as I really don't. He's in the retribution phase right now, see here: Out of the FOG - The Abusive Cycle

This isn't your fault. But it's not going to change by itself. He's not going to change. I'm really sorry, but you need to get out.

I see you're in Alabama, so I have looked up some resources, I don't have personal experience of them but there's a whole list of numbers here:
Abuse shelters - Alabama - Knights of Kindness

Please consider calling one just to talk.