Ugh. I totally forgot that I cried in the first session with my current therapist. I was shocked that I did that. I had been sans therapist for a month after termination. However, the thing I cried about was that I had called another therapist that xT recommended, and scheduled an appointment, then cancelled, then wanted the appointment again, because I was really crazy stressed. This T called me and left a message that reminded me of what my xT would at that point say, and this devastated me. He said, "I don't want to waste your time, and I certainly don't want to waste mine." So, I was telling my T this, and I was surprised when out poured this massive pain and tears? I don't remember what he did, I'm pretty sure that he sat with me letting me feel how I felt. He asked me how I felt afterward, and I told him, and he told me I looked afraid. I was afraid that then new T felt like this T that called and my xT, and in telling new T this, I was afraid that would believe them and not me. I was afraid I would forever feel unheard, misunderstood, and insignificant. Luckily, that wasn't the case, quite the opposite.

I cried a few times, not much, with xT. He did the same, just kind of sat with me, then asked me about it afterwards.

Rabbit,
I suspect that your T is sitting with you mindfully as you cry, I suspect that she is there for you and that she feels for you, and that she is teaching you that it is safe to be in pain and to express it while she is there with you. That way, when you do it alone, hopefully the feeling of safety will transfer. I'm not sure, though, that's kind of just what I think.

Thank you for your threads, I enjoy them!