certain things trigger that causes anxiety up to point where it is very difficult to control. Sometimes flashbacks, but usually when I sleep, so they are dreams.

I often feel guilty and want to hide which is what has caused my agoraphobia. It takes a lot of energy to go outside with my public face mask.

Some may think it's depression that caused agoraphobia, but there is a fear component that I work hard to control. Fear makes me hide. Why fear? Fear is on the way to panic.

One of my meds regulates heart rate which is useful to help with panic attack!

This guilt because I survived why not be dead with the others? Guilt becomes depression, then depression shows the symptoms that make it hard to live.

So my pdoc just wanted to treat depression(inderal often uses in panic attack suffers and keep blood pressure lower).i hope I did not write too much.