Thank you hamster. Because my husband works on and off and gets unemployment in between I do not qualify for any services based on his income. I have applied for many types of help and have been turned down. When you are working poor you get nothing, just a fact of the healthcare in this country. Not sure what I'm going to do. Please believe when I say I have tried to get help I have in every way possible. I don't just sit here feeling sorry for myself. I am numb today, guess that's a good thing for now. My emotions are cycling back and forth very quickly these days, going to try to get some control over them with some mindful thinking. I also do yoga and exercise and some meditating. Trying to help myself in ways I can. Thank you again for your support.