Welcome beautifulfreak. I hope you find much support and comfort here as I already have in a short while. The pain and intense emotions are something I struggle with too. Sometimes I feel so much pain or hurt I think I can literally feel my body being taken over by it. It becomes a psycial pain. And there is nothing worse than being told to ' get over it'. You've come to a place where we all understand and share that same pain. Nothing has brought me more comfort than reading other peoples experiences on here. For the first time in my whole life, I feel less alone and less abnormal. One thing I hold on to and love about people like ourselves is that our pain makes us beautiful people inside with caring natures, huge empathy, and an understanding for people that most do not have. The beautiful freaks in life are always the most wonderful people and the ones I am honored to know and call friends. Hugs to you.