I want to go see Dave Matthews Band in July and I've thought about buying tickets and just seeing if I come up with someone to go with but I'm afraid I'll spend all the money and then no one will go with me. I've seen them five times and they're so fun in concert. I want to go so badly.

It was a weird day. I felt okay to begin with. Then I went to the store and seeing all of the happy people with their own people made me really lonely and sad. Then I wrote a letter of apology taking responsibility for my actions to my ex-friend (the one I had the falling out with Monday). Until now, I haven't taken responsibility for being so awful and angry. And I wanted to tell him what he meant to me. I don't expect a response, which I also said, but it was important that I apologize. So... I have mixed feelings about that. I'm watching a show and then I'll go to bed. Don't really want to do tomorrow...pdoc appt, T appt, and then work. I hope they cancel my shift.