I did a search (a "standarrd" google search). I didn't coin or invent that term. I am not surprised.

Thoughts distort, twist, what I am trying to say. So many different meanings, realities (?) and perceptions to the same words, to the same speech patterns

I doubt if I could ever invent a term in current usage........ um.... that doesn't make sense. So maybe make up my own language. But then NO ONE would understand. Not a good idea. A terrible idea. But maybe ok for my journal.

Lots of reading to do to see what fits where. To work on my reality, to see where my perceptions of people in my past and present have been accurate and true. I already know my perceptions are real (thanks sky, re thread in PTSD)