))))))) ) )sailaway (((( ( (( hi, one of the things about therapy and opening up and letting the crappola out, its a messy process. It hurts like a big old boil popping, but, the relief after, when you realize the pain is not gonna kill you this time if it didn't kill you when it happened..... it's in the past.... and you can start to breath, and catch your breath and peek into the damaged, but now pussless, place....... well, finally knowing the truth, even if it sucks big time, is a relief...... OH dang, dang dang, there's a good reason for every broken piece in me..... it's validating in a deep satisfying way. I always find validation sets me up with energy to move forward, even a little excitedly, to clean up the old mess.

Finding a space to feel safe in has been one of my challenges.
Breathing, meditation, music while bundled under my blankies, doing positive imagry, perhaps with a pet in there with you......?????? All I can say is, it eventually comes from within, bit by bit. You couldn't pry me away from my shrink at this point. She's a good fit for me and gives a caring continity I don't get from other medicos. ya know?