I do understand where you are coming from, Trippin, and I appreciate your opinion, I did ask for it after all. But yeah, I'm not too eager to back out of the relationship yet because I've done that kind of thing before. I find that I make poor and impulsive decisions based upon fleeting emotions. And I started this thread because I was upset and now that I've had plenty of time to cool off, I'm not in the same frame of mind. I guess what I'm trying to say is that my "perception" of reality changes quite violently and that one minute I can love her and I just adore the sweet and kind person that she is, then in a heartbeat I become some kind of monster and I just snap. So yeah, I've been thinking about it for a while I guess and I don't think it's that I don't enjoy being with her and care very much but that I should probably take into account that I have severe attachment issues. I guess I forget sometimes. Again, thank you very much for all your help, I hope things will work out but if I feel that everything is just going wrong, then I guess I'll have to take your advice.

Thanks for the opinion Perna, again, I might very well have to end the relationship but I'd like to keep trying. I'm only, now, just starting to understand the issues I have with connecting to people and I don't want to do anything too impulsively. I've talked to her about this and she's happy to see where it goes, I guess she's hoping for a miracle. But she's willing to try and fix this and so am I. So hopefully that can be done. thank you again.

I do try to control things like that ,hamster-bamster. As in I try to control my emotional reactions, I think I do okay. If I can talk myself down and bring a little logic into the situation, I find that things become okay and I actually really enjoy spending time with her.

Again, thank you to everyone who offered their help, it means a lot and I've taken everything that's been said and thought about it long and hard. Again, thank you .