I dont know anymore, I was sexually abuse in 2009.... Ive had sex with well to be honest i dont know, I thought if sleeping with someone would let me feel in control of when where and who, I havent told anyone about the number of men Ive been with because Im afraid of being judged and called a slut ***** all the names in the book.... I havent had sex in almost 3 years now but as of lately Ive been wanting sex from I dont care who because I dont care for myself... I want that feeling of being wanted and in control of something in my life..... can anyone help??