Dear Orion, I am sooo glad you posted here at PC. Years ago I attended a survivors of incest group. The women who had undergone distorted religous tortures had such an extra hard time, if that is possible, because their world had no trust in anythind, not family,not even a God, Goddess, Allah, Buddha....... nothing, no touchstone to found oneself upon.

My father put me through a wide variety of abuses, so I can relate. I'm so glad you survived and are able to reach out for help. Saying what happened out loud is an amazing step to achieve. Good for YOU for every bit, every little step you take, reclaiming your self for your self!!!! There's no rush. It took years for you to get messed up, it'll take years to unwind...... the thing is to take a step when you can, integrate, step when you can, integrate..... ad infenitem.....

ps, I love your name,))))))) ) Orion ((((((((( . One of my favorite constellations!!