Why do I keep putting up with it?? Why don't I just cut all my losses and move on?? I don't deserve this!!!!!

If I could, I'd move to the farthest point in the US and change my name so no one could find me ever again!!! So I would never hear what "Jerry's family" that I provided for him, is doing as a FAMILY!!!! He doesn't get it and neither do they!!! THEY ARE MY FAMILY!!!!! I MADE IT A FAMILY AND I MADE THEM!!!!