Thanks for your replies....it's the strangest thing. To hate something that helps me so much.

I forgot to take it this morning and didn't realize it until two hours into my day....but I did realize my lack of drive and attention. When I was driving back home to take it (I'm a dedicated addict) my mouth was literally hanging open a bit because I was so distant.

I really hate to be a downer and be complaining, but I really want to know its me in here and I'm not some puppet. Feelings from this morning suggest I'm nothing without the med, but now I'm back in awesome mode since I've had it.

Am I really gonna be tethered to this pill for the rest of my days?

Thanks again for your replies and sorry for complaining so much.